I Don't Understand a.k.a. IS THIS HAPPENING?

I don't understand

You say you love me

When did the word "love" become like acid?

It pains me to reply

I have everything I could ever want

And I am setting it on fire

My girl, you have done nothing to deserve this

But I cannot stand the taste of your mouth

Lying is easy

Pain hurts

You deserve the whole world and I crush you

Lying next to you I am sick

Sitting in my lot of frustration

Aware of my sins, past and future

The pain I inflict is unknown to you

But always at the front of my brain

There is no reason not to act on impulse

Follow your heart and break another

Such a liar

I do not deny the truth

In the dead of night it haunts me in emptiness

I am tearless, but not fearless

How I wish

For this pain to grow stronger

Fuck me 'till the end

Birds.

Shit soaks through to the teeth, to the teeth

Life is messier than this, than this, than this

Birds who were not meant to fly, meant to fly

Now you're stuck with a fist, fist, fist

Shoot the gun into your eye

Shoot it twice into the sky

Life is messier than this, than this, than this

Then this is the time to fly

Birds who were not meant to soar, meant to soar

Tend to jump into the sea, to the sea

My back itches more than this

I'm bleeding from the inside out.